My contribution is forgotten

Some people are just forgetting that I am paying for their enjoyment every month. If this amount of my contribution is not observed, or other words being ignored and not being treated accordingly, I would have been more happy to rather pass this amount to those unfortunates who at least I know they will utilize it meaningfully and not disappointing me; rather than paying to nonsense meaningless activities, which in fact act as knives stabbing my heart for no reason.